Chapter Thirteen
June sixteenth, Thursday around
one-thirty on another totally overcast. cloud enfolding, rain be-spattered day.
The clouds broke up yesterday afternoon and I walked the two blocks to the
lakefront and observation pier at the end of the street in front of my hotel.
Distant gently rolling silhouettes of cloud enshrouded hills on the other side
of this mirror to the sky. As the misty-ness condenses into light droplets,
walk across the lakeshore green grass campground to a restaurant with South
Indian masala dosa. Drizzle subsides, clouds part, sunlight falls to the
streets and I head north up Lakeside street to get a feel for what’s along the way.
A metal spiraling staircase to the first
floor above takes me into the Babylon Café. Tanya calls me here, tall, smiling,
lithe and spontaneously engaging, she beckons to me in passing to climb the
spiraling staircase I have just that moment walked by without notice. Climb the
stairwell and visit a magical place, she says. Somewhere
in the middle of her middle age, this woman brings me up here with her smile
and her voice. Tanya visits with her friend Prakash at a table overlooking the
street. I climbed this stairwell fully intending to visit with Tanya, and sit
quietly at the table for four across from her and Prakash, who are engaged in
conversation, clearly with strong roots of personal caring. Babylon is not crowded, but everyone who comes up the
stairwell seems to be part of a network of friends. There are some not-so-very
loud speakers set into some parts of the ceiling, and one of the old original
Beatles albums comes on. Song after song, the whole early repertoire. And there
are a couple of guys working the pool table, and all I’m mainly doing up here
is getting to know Tanya, her friends, and the place they like to be. It’s a
down-home place, and these are down-home people to me. Raju is an extraordinary
young man who is passionately trying to improve the schooling facilities and
programs in the rural areas surrounding Tatopani, a village I remember from
long ago.
As afternoon settles into dusk and
darkness, pool teams gravitate towards the table, and Tanya and Raju and I and
a couple other fellows, including the owner-manager sometimes, go through quite
a few rounds of next team plays the winner eight-ball. Pizzas are ordered, a
beer comes out, and magical incense burns. Lots of little get-to-know-you salt
and pepper conversations along the way. If you think the evening is over at
eleven, you’ve got another think coming. A few blocks up the street is a
like-it-like-that place called Orange House, where some extraordinary musicians
from Australia – saxophonist and flautist – are performing tonight,
although by this time, they’ve probably finished, but they are good friends of
Tanya, so let’s go see them anyway. The Orange House patio is open to the lake,
and a great swathe of darkness spreads out across the waters towards pinpoints
of light from the occasional home in the distant hills. Altogether, a dozen or
more people in our group. To me, all of this is basically Tanya’s party.
Raju needs some teaching puppets for his
Tatopani schools. Alsan the Russian juggler says that the key to juggling is to
remain un-focused in your attention to what you are doing, and see more, such
as what is going on within the range of peripheral vision. Focusing has its
role, and so does un-focusing. The party goes on till around two. The
owner-manager here is also a part of the circle of friends, and all formalities
have been either liquidated, smoked-out, or both. Walk part of the way back
with some of my new friends, along dark and damp and dimly lit streets, and
through that last stretch of empty lanes between Babylon Café and my Little
Tibetan Guest House. The dark morning hours of empty city streets are freshly
rain-washed, while misty halos surround those occasional urban light bulbs. Puddles
of fresh rainwater reflect those halos of misty pastel hues into the envelope
of silence.
Second night out in Pokhara and I’ve found
my anchor through Tanya and her friends at the Babylon Café. From U.K. in her forties, Tanya is full of exuberant,
positive, serious, and playful energy for everyone in this circle of friends.
And seriously, she has been through a deep and complicated story I cannot here
begin to tell, not least of all because I barely know it, but also, very
importantly, because not all the stories people tell me are mine to tell. For
all of what it was, she came out the other side, with a fresh resolution to see
her life through to the fullest, and all of that has brought her to the Babylon
Cafe in Pokhara.
Raju, in his twenties, gives his heart to
the educational development for small kids in rural Tatopani. Prakash is a
sensitive finger picking guitarist. And one can only wonder who else will come
up these stairs. Not much of a food menu: snacks and order out pizza from
Godfather’s next door, soft drinks, tea, coffee, beer and liquor – and a free
pool table that pretty much always has a game going across the felt. Pokhara is
looking like a place to sit and get to know, and it is especially nice going to
a little place where I’m talked to more like a friend of the family than as
another customer.
Cloudy, rainy Thursday morning after the
party. Order up breakfast and wait for the clouds to lighten up, maybe even
disappear for a while. Walk Lakeside north from where I’m at once more, looking for
landmarks for where I was yesterday. Where is that spiraling staircase again?
Closer than I think. Raju will be heading back to Tatopani probably tomorrow,
and if I am going to come out and visit, the sooner the better, for these
little rains we’re seeing these days are only harbingers for what is to come.
The Jomsom – Muktinath idea might not be viable. Right now all I want to do is
get the feel for Pokhara, and let my ideas for excursions grow and mature
before I go jeeping down the road. More pre-game research and analysis is
required.
Friday, June seventeenth early afternoon
at Sweet Memories restaurant on Lakeside street , Pokhara. Best cup of Masala Chai I’ve ever had, in
a large mug, at a bargain price. Good bowl of Thukpa vegetable noodle soup. Hot
and sunshiny today. Got it in my mind to stay in Pokhara at least a couple of
weeks. Throw in some excursions into outlying areas, and I can easily see a
month going by. For sure, it’s got that feel of a place to stay and get to
know. Walk south along Lakeside street to get acquainted with store fronts for coffee shops
and restaurants and book shops. Maybe because its off-season, last couple of
weeks before monsoon sets in, or maybe because it’s just that kind of town,
mainstreet traffic is light, and the street horn music is negligible. Lakeside Serenity. German bakery by around four-thirty.
Tanya, You have been living in this little
Pokhara world you have created for yourself for quite some time now. Soon you
will see the world through the eyes of fifty years gone by and wonder what that
will look like. I’ve walked up the spiraling staircase to visit your magical
world, Tanya. So far, it is you and I and Raju and Prakash and Shekar who are
playing the primary parts for this story. Principal venues have been Babylon
Café and Orange House night club. Orange House three nights out of the last
four. It’s another night in Pokhara, and where do we go from here?
Saturday June eighteenth at two-thirty
afternoon at the table of my doorstep patio. Yesterday (Friday) began with a
cup of excellent Masala chai and a bowl of Thukpa at Sweet Memories on North Lakeside . Sunshine and Blue skies. Walk by all the shops and
restaurants of south Lakeside . Time to get a little sense of where is what, and
what is where. So many choices for restaurants and coffee shops! At the taxi
stand in the shade of a large banyan tree, take the path to the Lakeside promenade where many restaurants fronting Lakeside street extend themselves with patios and gardens into
panoramic Lakeside views. Find a shady spot under a small tree to enter
that space where the calm water and blue sky and grayscale horizon blend into
each other and that is all that is in my mind. Walk to the German bakery on
North Lakeside for good chocolate cake and black coffee. Climb the spiral
staircase of Babylon Café around five-thirty, and shoot a few rounds on the
green felt with Prakash. Others come up the spiral staircase as the hours roll
slowly by, including Raju, and Tanya and Shekar and MataMa. The pool table is
always busy with different team combos playing round after round of eight ball.
As our teams wind down and others take over, get down to a circle of seven on
pillows around a floor table, including Tanya and Raju. Tanya asks about my
book. I bring my two copies out, and she and Raju and I sit at an end of the
table reading through the verse on the first page very closely. Raju is verily
enchanted with the phrases he reads aloud and his enthusiasm enchants me. The
other copy circulates around the bar and the pool table. Raju wants to
translate into Nepali, and Tanya, Raju and I spend time talking about Nepali
equivalents to my phrases, such as The Spirit of the Earth. There is a Nepali
word for that, MataMa our Earth Mother, who happens to be sitting at our
table. It’s like pouring all of the
pieces out of a jigsaw puzzle box and watching them all fall into their perfect
interlocking places. The whole world, you know, passes through the Babylon Café
in Pokhara. At the top of the spiraling staircase of Babylon Café is indeed a
magical place.
The party moves over to the Orange House
again (still Friday). Prakash has his guitar, and there is good music and
singing in the darkness under the occasional flashing lightning bursts of the
lakeside night sky.
The (Saturday) evening began upstairs at Babylon with Shekar and I one-on-one across the table for
some basic getting to know the family time. Tanya and Raju arrive at dusk in
their helmets and slickers, having ridden through some rain on their return
trip from a day in the surrounding hills. We sit together for awhile, each with
a fresh large bottle of Tuborg beer, and gravitate towards the pool table for a
few rounds with partners with Shekar or someone else around who wants to get in
on the action.
Gets to be time around nine or so to be
getting over to the action at the Orange House. Raju’s scooter gets he and
Tanya and I on down the street to where we want to go. The house is not crowded
and we get a table up front where we can watch close how the musicians work
their instruments. Tanya’s reasons for choosing our table works for me. Eric
comes to join us not long later, and then after a bit, is called up to the
stage by the guitarist Sunder who hands Eric his guitar, who then plays through
a whole lot of jamming with Sandeep and Matty, and it is all very good. Almost
like a family of musicians who like to share what they’ve got going on that
evening.
And so it goes - a little dancing, a
little smoking, and a little beer drinking - till the guys who brought their
instruments here begin to pack them up. Then it’s move to the rooftop for a
more open air and small table relaxed conversational setting. Until the lights
go out, and we sit in the dark, and walk through the maze that leads to the
empty midnight street.
Tanya showed me her poems. I read them
aloud from her i-phone screen across the blue-checkered table cloth overlooking
the quiet street. She is indeed a real poet, with a sensitive and fiery heart. Not
so abstract as to be un-sensible, but metaphorically suggestive in clear
emotional language. She has no thought about publishing these in a booklet.
That’s not why she wrote them. Here is a feeling that comes from the heart, so
that I might understand myself better, so that I can see the Beauty in the
waves crashing onto the rocks, bursting into clouds of misty spray. And to
share with others, one at a time, a message from a place that is not often
seen.
Sunday afternoon. Having met Raju at
Babylon Guest House, I ride with him on his scooter to Laila’s Bar and
Restaurant, basically a south side version of Babylon Café, a place to shoot a
little pool and sit quietly with a beer or chai. Later go on back to the
Babylon Guest House rear balcony facing the lake. Tanya arrives, and we three
go through Raju’s computer pictures from his village. As darkness settles in,
Nepali dinner with Tanya at the family place across the street. Later that
evening at the Babylon Café, Alsan the Russian who has lived in the Maldives,
gives a long and exquisitely eloquent charade for how to sail a rig, and how to
become so one in tune with the wind and the wave through the ropes one holds on
to, how one adapts one’s weight, and pulls tight or lets go slack, and how
much, and when . . . into the dance of “automatic error correction” to become
one with the wind, sailing, sailing, sailing . . . across the water.
Monday afternoon. Calendar of Days,
counting from another new beginning. Not counting the first afternoon and
evening of arrival, day number six in Pokhara. Starting on the first day with
the walk up the spiraling staircase to the loft of the Babylon Café. Small bar,
short menu, one pool table, two sticks. Half a dozen foursome seating
arrangements, three low tables on the floor with cushions, and three sets of
wooden tables with chairs. Two tables
are at the ledge with the street overview, and there you have it, the Vortex. Virtually most everything that has come around these
last five days has been through the Babylon Café and her sister a couple of
blocks up the street, the Babylon Guest House, and the Orange House night club
for jazz jamming and special musical arrangements, and its beer garden wooden
table feeling for the organic.
Tanya at the crossroads between the
horizontal and the vertical. When it came down to the choice between “do away
with it all” and “Live like you’ve never lived before.” So here she is!,
inviting me up the spiraling staircase to the magical room where foot-trails from
around the planet circle the green felt, then take rest at a chair or a cushion
before moving on to somewhere else. Raju is staying over at the Babylon Guest
House, and is searching for one hundred dollars to buy a set of sock puppets so
he can tell stories and teach his kindergarten school children in Tatopani.
Prakash helps behind the bar when necessary, and keeps track of his shot on the
pool table. Also very nice with his fingers on the acoustic guitar strings.
Shekar, chief manager for both the Cafe and the guest house, perhaps thirty,
beautiful wife and baby boy just nine months old, and is always a good man to
have on your team around the felt. Alsan, the Russian – Maldives sailing man and juggler. There is my inner circle.
I’ve got an anchor in Pokhara. Some little movement has been set into motion -
the flutter of a butterfly’s wings – and every day the sail will unfurl to see
if there’s a wind. And when the sail catches the wind and you’ve got all the
ropes you control well in hand, you become the wind across the water. That is one of the places to which one can go
on the loft at the top of the spiraling staircase – Babylon Café.
Passing through midnight between Monday and Tuesday, twentieth and
twenty-first. After noontime chai at Sweet Memories, it’s up the spiral
staircase where Prakash is housekeeping and Raju is working the green felt with
one of his friends. Raju and I sit for a little while and I get a facebook
invite. Around two, walk up to Babylon Guest House to meet with Shekar and tell
him I will pass by his offer of a streetside hotel room. I’m going to stay with
my garden deluxe at the Little Tibetan. Shekar and I together in his living
room are served plates of fresh made spaghetti from his smiling wife. So we’re
all down, and I walk back to the German bakery for a chocolate cake and black
coffee, before return to the hacienda for quiet time; then take in a great
veggie burger from Sweet Memories before heading up the spiral staircase as
nightfall begins. Business is good tonight, some tables going in conversational
circles under the dim but illuminating light. As the evening stories unfold, my
primary attention is with Tanya, Raju, Prakash, and Shekar. There is a nice
flow of visitors climbing the spiral staircase
to the magical loft, hanging out a little while at a table or shooting
pool, then going back down to the city sidewalk. Tuborg is the preferred beer,
and I take my turns around the green felt in continuing rounds of eight ball.
Tanya is in the game, Raju is in the game, Prakash is in the game, and Shekar
is hanging close to the bar and keeping his eyes on the tables. All the way to
closing a bit after eleven. And all the final goodnights on empty wet black
asphalt shining under occasional street lights are spoken, and all of our
wishes for seeing each other again.
Tuesday morning. Frederick from Norway has the room next door at the Little Tibetan. There
is no hurry, and nothing is happening. Tuesday afternoon. Meet with Frederick
at Godfather’s. Share a couple of beers and pizza. Frederick is just back from a couple of weeks trekking in the Annapurna range. In Pokhara for an overnight and flies out tomorrow. I guess Frederick to be in mid-twenties or early thirties. Lean,
athletic outdoorsman, this has not been his first trek and won’t be his last. We
cover a lot of ground conversing through mutual interests. I
finally get around to giving him a copy of my book, and he is interested in how
I explain what I put in there, and how long I have been carrying it.
Getting it down in Pokhara. Wednesday
morning on the patio with Frederick who is in a frustrating pickle because of
visa complications that will seriously interfere with his precisely planned
itinerary from Pokhara to Delhi to
visit with his friend there and then on to Bangkok to visit with another friend before flying back to Norway . Totally balled up because of one of the so-called
clearly stated rules and regulations. Well, if it had been clearly stated, Frederick certainly wouldn’t have bought the e-visa, now
worthless and non-refundable. To which bureaucrat shall this be explained? The
final answer will always be: What can I do? in the tone of fateful
helplessness. For Frederick, it’s pick up the pieces and reconfigure the plan
for how to get to where he wants to go within a workable and comfortable time
frame. Bus to Kathmandu and fly to Delhi looks like the way. Like cruising along the freeway
after a long stretch, getting tantalizingly close to the destination, and
running into a total roadblock and convoluted detour. Nothing to do but do what
you need to do.
Meanwhile, over at Babylon last night, Prakash is out of town to Kathmandu for two days. Tanya and I are working with Raju’s computer on putting
together a Resume / Curriculum Vitae for Prakash, so he can apply for a water
salesman and delivery position in Dubai or some such place. Prakash is twenty-six. His
experience is five years as Bar Manager here at Babylon . His mother has just been diagnosed with a treatable
cancer, and Prakash wants to work where he can make money to pay medical
expenses. Prakash also has people helping to see if there are opportunities for
him in either Germany or Spain . What is so agonizingly frustrating is that he will
have to leave his mother’s side during this critical time while he is earning money
to care for her. This Dubai
opportunity is fresh, so we’ll see. Meanwhile, another night at Babylon .
Wednesday night into Thursday morning,
halfway between sunset and sunrise, Twice-a-Day-Dawn, unraveling a story that
went by today. One small colored pencil drawing. Watch Frederick be confronted with his itinerary crisis, face it
with decisive action, and be off and on his way to a bus to Kathmandu by one. Lots of drizzling going
on throughout the morning and afternoon. Type notes and drink coffee on the
downstairs patio. Sweet Memories for veggie burger and chai after six, and up
the spiraling staircase to find Shekar alone and awaiting tonight’s flow of
visitors. I’ve got the perfect view of a red and orange and violet tinted
sunset over the distant hills beyond the Mirror to the Sky. Raju comes up and
gets into a pool game with one of his friends. Tanya arrives with friends
Matias from Austria and another fellow. Alsan shows up and he and I have been having
conversations about balancing and movement. The juggler who sails through the
wind over water and who describes the movements one makes while paragliding to
catch the currents as you feel them going by. Conversing with Alsan is such a
stimulating experience as we wind our way through convoluted but sensible and
ultimately simple descriptions of what we see and how we experience everything
out there, including and especially those other people, or, as Mali would say, “There are no Others.”
Sometimes sitting on some floor cushions
at a low level table with Alsan and Matias, sometimes circling the pool table
looking for my best shot. All the way to the end, after closing the bar, laying
the sticks on the table, and finishing those last beers, winding our ways down
the spiral staircase to the quiet street with soft light. Raju’s original
intention to be on his way to Tatopani continues in this state of postponement
as he persistently tries to figure a way to get some puppets for his schools.
Between Thursday night and Friday morning,
the twenty-third and the twenty-fourth. Continuing the log for the Babylon café. Ran into a group of Global Vision
International volunteers sitting on the cushions around one of the floor
tables.
Americans,
Europeans, Australians, young twenties or younger fulfilling an educational
requirement with this overseas volunteer work. So they come and hang out with
the orphan kids for a few weeks and then go home to their American, European,
and Australian homes, and the kids are left with another hole in their heart.
Someone who comes into your life and shows you love, so that you can then show
your own love . . . and then the visitor disappears, and here is a fresh hole
in your heart. How many times does this happen in this child’s lifetime? How
many people will he see come and go, will she see come and go? This perspective
from Tanya, and I’ve heard similar stories.
All of that aside for the generous
volunteers who put their hearts into what they are doing. As I sit down at the
next table, friendly faces turn my way, and we connect around their table. We
get around to the symbol on my T-shirt, and to sacred geometry with Rachel on
my right, so I bring out my book, and Rachel is very interested. Rachel turns
the pages very slowly and refers to the stanzas as hymns. Such a lovely
thought. The first time I’ve ever heard that thought, and I go immediately in
my mind to Sanskrit chanting, and I don’t know exactly what Rachel is hearing,
but the idea, regardless of the language and the style, is enchanting,
complimentary, and inspiring. Rachel was absorbing those stanzas, those lines,
those phrases, and she heard something.
June twenty-fourth at noon . Day ten in Pokhara. Nothing to Say. Break time.
Just let those thoughts think themselves out until something comes along that
says it wants to be written.
Sixes are Dicks. Fours are Whores. A
drinking game through a deck of cards and there are so many rules; every card
that is turned over has a rule that says who takes a drink. Not wanting to get sloshed, I sit and watch
and listen and laugh along with the table of seven volunteers turning the cards
and making the calls.
Circling the midnight hour between the twenty-fifth and twenty-sixth.
Saturday becomes Sunday and there will be a new adventure. Today was blue sky
sunny after a misty beginning, and south along Lakeside is my path for as long as it takes to reach a turn around point. A
continuing line of shops of every sort, coffee cafes, and hotel fronts, along
one side of the street, and a continuing, lushly green park alongside the
narrowing lake on the other. A sculpture garden of granite stonework, arranged
like small megalithic standing stones, or fallen stones, all carved with intent
to convey a connection with the ancient, the primordial, the organic. There is
a carved stone face, one eye open with sun wheel within, the other eye closed,
almost, into a knowing wink. Listen to the message in the Stone.
A whole new crop of G.V.I. volunteers,
including Holly whom I played Casino with the night before, and Lorraine from Wisconsin , and Brittany from Dallas . Prakash is returned from his Kathmandu visit, and may have to visit there again. Alsan is here at the bar.
Raju is not here tonight.
Monday the twenty-seventh mid-morning.
Yesterday was for sitting in. My first floor window faces an ancient stonework
wall three feet high, lush with green moss and small ferns, and over the wall
is a back yard field of tall and flowering corn stalks. Easy place to sit and
watch the sky go by. Go to Sweet Memories for a chicken sizzler and chai at
six, then on to Babylon for this evening’s story. Special guest this evening
is Brendon from Ireland , age fifty-one. From the street, Brendon sees that there is pool at the
top of the spiraling staircase. I have already played some Casino with Shekar,
and am turning cards over in solitaire, when Brendon arrives looking for a
game, so he and I go a few rounds. We set the sticks down, passing them on to
the younger crowd now gradually climbing the stairs and making the place hum.
Tanya comes in and she and Brendon have a rousing good across the bar
conversation about all the British and Irish things they know so well. Prakash
is running the bar, and Alsan is close by, and he and I experiment with ways of
handling playing cards. Different teams walk around the table. For me, it’s
mostly sitting at the bar going through some beer with Brandon . Schlantza.
So what I am actually Doing in Pokhara is
hanging out in restaurants (Sweet Memories), Coffee bars (German bakery or
Himalayan café), and the Babylon Café and Bar for beer, eight-ball, and making
friends. Masala Chai and Tuna veggie salad for lunch at two. Hot sunny out
there and unless I want to work up a sweat, no need to go walking very far. Countdown
for Tanya’s birthday is zero minus two weeks. Can’t help but wonder how that is
going to fly.
Tuesday the twenty-eighth. Into the first row of hills surrounding the
lake. With Alsan my guide, on the back of his scooter up some winding rocky
paths first to visit Alexander, who speaks Russian and Hebrew, and writes
satirical poetry in Russian, and then translates into English, but translating
poetry, as we know, is more than slightly difficult. Then Alsan and I go along
another rocky path to meet with Birin, native Nepali, Anne from Russia , and their eight month old son Agestay, i.e. Rishi. Lovely
overview of the lake and the City by the Lake . Alsan gets into an elaborate explanation and demonstration in mime of
the paragliding experience. So when am I going to try it? Not just yet. Meanwhile, back to Sweet Memories for a one o’clock masala chai and plate of Aloo Pakoda, i.e. potato
wedgies deep fried. What are the most memorable experiences in my life? Thank
you Prakash, for that question. There are a lot of ways to think about that
one! Alsan gets a copy of my book over at Alexander’s.
Frozen in a state of repetition. Drink
beer and shoot pool at Babylon
every night for the last two weeks. Breakfast on my patio, delivered by Sarita:
porridge, fried eggs, potatoes, toast and coffee: every morning between seven
and eight.
Visit
Sweet Memories restaurant on Lakeside every day, sometimes twice, for Masala chai and
something to eat. Everything else is peripheral. In depth local color at the
Babylon Café. Play it for all its worth in this circulating circle of local
friends, people who either live here, or leave only to return. The blossom
unfolds of its own accord. Here is a matrix where I fit in. Leave it to my
guides to show me the way. You stay long, you meet people who stay long. You
don’t be in a hurry to go someplace particular right now. Here again, it is all
about who you meet along the way. It is about finding my conversations. One for
what I’m talking about with myself, and the other for what we talk about
together, you and I.
Thursday, June thirtieth at eleven-thirty
morning. Cloudiness prevails so far. Boudnath, Kathmandu was for circling the great stupa every day, all fifteen hundred years
of it, right where it always has been. Over here in Pokhara, it’s the Babylon
Café and Bar, one spiraling staircase above the sidewalk, where the circles go
round, and particularly those circles around the green felt. I’ve fallen into a
story and all I have to do is tell it. Raju and Tanya have been off to visit
Raju’s school in Tatopani the last three days. Up in the loft it’s been mostly
Prakash, Alsan and I focusing around the bar, and Prakash and I will sometimes
team up to challenge a round at the green felt table. Prem is also there last
couple of nights with his guitar.
Rode with Alsan on the back of his scooter
thirty kilometers down the road southwest of the city. One destination turned
into another and every bend in the road led to another winding path that
offered the question, what is around this corner? Till we get to the end of the
map, the edge of the paper where the road no longer goes. Lunch in the village
on the edge of the known world, and then follow a little walking trail down
from the road to a crystal clear mountain stream rushing through clustered
boulders.
Two weeks now its been in the city,
hanging close to a small world between the Little Tibetan Guest House, the
Babylon Café and Bar, Sweet Memories restaurant, and a couple of coffee house
bakeries, besides which the grocery store for juice and peanut butter, that’s
it, and I wonder about what is beyond the city limits, knowing full well that
it’s not all that very far to the great peaks, and there cannot be a hurry. The
day will come, just like yesterday came, and the road was there, opening again
and again, through one curve into another, to places that are always there.
Saturday, July second. Here we are. Middle
of the year, mid-morning.
Looks
like cloudy all day, if it’s anything like yesterday. The kind of cloud that
settles over the lake and into the streets with hazy gray presence. The
raindrops perpetually hang, drift and fall through the misty atmosphere, as the
lake and the city and the sky merge into a soggy wetness. The let-up yesterday
came just before noon . I walked over
to Sweet Memories for a veggie burger, fries and chai, sat through another
downpour, at the streetside open air table under the canopy, where I can reach
my arm out into the lake falling into itself. And the cloud takes another
breath, inhales after the sneeze, withdraws to gather herself again.
Pedestrians emerge one by one into the mist, the opening in the cloud. Walk the
block and a half and across the street to the German bakery for black coffee
and chocolate cake, and a front table chair in an empty shop where I can watch
through the wide plate glass the passers-by. Watch for who glances through the
window, through the open doorway, to this old man sitting at this table reading
a book.
Currently eighty pages into The Snow
Leopard by Peter Matthiesen, from 1978, about his trip in 1973 through Pokhara
and around the Annapurna and Dhaulagiri ranges, where I walked through in 1970. Peter and
his friend then went much further west and north into Himalayan Nepal, quite
rough country to be walking through as he so vividly describes, and he weaves
the story of his personal journey through life into the narrative, so there are
at least two stories going on here. First time I’ve read this piece of writing,
this set of interwoven stories. Reminds me of what I think I’m doing. This year
long sabbatical I’m sleepwalking through, dreaming my way through the world I
walk through, deciding who and what and where and when everything all goes
together in making up the story I live with. Here is how it looks like from
inside the cave.
Now down to nine copies of the English
version of my Pondicherry published edition of The Gathering (another Title?),
and four copies of the French version.
I
can imagine it not being very long before I find interested parties for eight
of those English copies, which leaves me with my demo copy, and the option of
looking for another offset printer. Say for a hundred books, and I could hang
around Pokhara just like I hung around Pondicherry and hand them out to likely readers. But I’m not
going to be in Pokhara all that long, and I can’t be carrying a load of books
off to Leh. Baggage weight will be a critical factor on that trip, however I
choose to carry it out. I’ll just hand out what I’ve got till I run out, less
my keeper, and then maybe make some more in Leh. For it is fun sharing my book
with people I meet along the way, other travelers, residents, like-minded
people, sharing interests in the way we see the world. It’s my answer to the
question, what do you do? or, what have you done? Alternatively, who have you
been? or, who are You? And so on.
So I sit in the German bakery, and watch a
little more rainfall; another break comes along, and it’s walk back to the
guest house, where I can watch the rain resume through the ongoing opaque
afternoon. Two nights away from the Babylon . After every night for two weeks, since my first
afternoon in this City by the Lake , it’s two nights away from the beer, the green felt
table, the greetings in friendship, and the ayurvedic, medicinal, alchemical
smoking recipes that pass by. It’s been two nights off for reflection time. The
question lingers about how long to continue in this city, when to leave, what
route to take, how to prepare, and even whether or not I will get much closer
to the mountains of Nepal this time.
My sense for what I’m doing here revolves
around meaningfulness and completion. Whatever it turns out to be, whoever it
turns out to be about, myself included, there will be a departure. The idea,
“See You Again,” will hang in the misty cloud above our heads as we wonder,
will who we have been together happen again?, or, is who we have been together
who we always are to each other? In either case, it is always fun to reconnect
when two hearts feel it true.
Sunday, July third, eleven-forty morning.
Sunshine and blue sky to start the day off, although I won’t be surprised if
the gray clouds roll in. Returned to Babylon yesterday evening. Touch base with Prakash around
the green felt. Starts off he and I the only ones there. Tanya climbs the
stairwell, now returned from her few days over in Tatopani at Raju’s school
playing guitar and singing songs to kids. Always smiling Prem comes up, and a
bit later, Alsan is here. Then a couple of other Nepali young men, Ballu and
Ram. Teams are chosen and rounds of eight ball go down. Thing about the teams
is how changing partners flows between games and sets of two or three games. So
that during the course of an evening, given six players, each person will
likely as not have paired up with each of the others. Alsan never plays pool,
although he often watches as closely as everyone else what is going around on
the table. The Nepali guys, Ballu and
Ram, eventually call it an evening and head down the stairs, and then this
group of five carries on with what is like a little reunion for Tanya returned
from absence to her treasured presence. A couple or so more pool games, some
juggling with those illuminated-from-within balls that change colors. There is
no red ball, or blue ball, or green ball, and yellow and violet are also in
there, as each color fades slowly through its glowing aura into another color. Some
partnership teamwork juggling between Alsan and Prakash. Both Prem and Prakash
take turns with the harmonica I brought up, Alsan has his harmonica, and Tanya
plays guitar and sings with her strong voice. Back stretching and bone-cracking
exercises for whoever is inclined. All things considered, a rather fit group of
yoga practitioners. Way past the closing hour, and Prakash, in charge of the
place, has to keep hushing our voices so we don’t disturb the downstairs
neighbors. Tanya, Alsan and I finally make it down the spiraling staircase.
Alsan scooters Tanya north to her guest house, then returns to scooter me south
to my guest house. These are really short, walkable distances, and basically,
all that is really going on here is a small group of people who like sharing
time with each other, and making our lives, for all of whatever it is that each
of us is dealing with, a bit easier. Take a break and laugh a little, and ride
through the dark, empty and silent streets of Lakeside Pokhara on this friend’s
extra scooter seat. Thus day nineteen in the City by the Lake . Through the slowness of evolutionary development, another day is here.
In
every hue of gray they gather,
Merge
dark and light into each other
Through
lightning flash and thunder rumble
Towards
the storm impending.
Begins
the Rain
Through
final soft gray light of dusk
Falling
into darkness,
Our
darkness not yet here,
So
let us linger in this gray light,
Listen
to the falling water,
Soft
and steady falling,
Falling
from however far above,
Straight
down from sky the droplets fall,
Into
the Lake , onto the Earth,
Into
the branches of the trees,
Where
the white bird sleeps.
Monday, July fourth, at ten-thirty in the
morning. How is the cloud doing this morning? How many words are out there for
how many shades of gray are out there, all the way across from every horizon to
every other horizon, drifting through each other into new configurations? Lunch
yesterday at the Chinese restaurant I see across the cornfield through my
window. Paper red lanterns dangle across the upper floor patio looking over the
quiet side street. Name of the place written in large black on white Chinese
characters. Outdoor blackboard menu with specials of the day is all in Chinese.
This might be the real McCoy, or should I say, the real Lao Tzu? Every dish of
the page-after-page menu has a picture with a Chinese and an English name, and
I go with the fried tofu and vegetables in hot sauce with a bowl of white rice,
and the bottomless glass cup of green tea is provided. Here across the
cornfield from the window to my room, my window to the sky, and the bird taking
wing.
Evening rain clouds gather. Another night
apart from Babylon . Whether it’s raining or not, I want the night off. I
love the Babylon crowd, and feel more at home here than anywhere on
this entire trip since November. I sit here on the threshold of the Himalayan
massif bonding with my family. These are the people I’ll be coming back to when
I return, including my host family at The Little Tibetan Guest House. I can
take a bus west to the town of Beni, but I have seen a thirty-second video clip
Tanya took from the rear of Raju’s scooter as they rode along the rocky path
from Beni to Tatopani, and that’s what it is, a rocky path.
Every day it rains, the dirt gets a little
soggier, and when and where the next landslide will strike is anybody’s guess.
So it’s like I got to be settling into myself, while my self is settling into
Pokhara, and not fretting about the sogginess of the season, but rejoicing in
it, watching with wondrous amazement the unfolding and unrolling the day’s sky
story.
Happy Rainbow Family day!
Tuesday, July fifth, still in the morning,
getting on towards noon .
Another cloudy day at the opening, with no apparent movement in the air except
for that wide wing-spanned bird gliding aloft in circles after circles after
circles without a single movement in those wings, just gliding, and gliding on
whatever invisible currents she turns through.
The days are all the same. Every day is
different. Returned to my newfound favorite Chinese restaurant yesterday for
that same tofu and vegetable dish from the day before. My system likes this
change in diet for whatever this Chinese chef is putting into his sauce.
Returned to the Babylon last night before nine. Shekar, Prakash, Alsan and
Tanya are around the short, curving bar, along with a younger British fellow
who is considering his career choice alternative. He thinks maybe accounting
because it pays well, but the rest of us here are encouraging him to think
along more exciting lines. Like maybe Airplane Pilot. Tanya was a pilot when
she was in her twenties, and gives first hand encouragement and advice for
pursuing this idea. Some pool games get started, Ballu and his friend come up,
teams are shuffled, and everyone except Alsan goes at least one round. A group
of five young Chinese come in, two girls and three guys, and sit around the low
table next to the bar where the rest of us cluster, so before long the two clusters
are sharing words. These five are from the Hong Kong area, and are on a south Asian jaunt for several weeks. This is their
first night in Pokhara, and they climb the spiral staircase from pure intuition
or some such thing. Walking down the unknown street, and here’s a spiral
staircase, so let’s climb and see what’s there!
For one thing, I get into describing the
geography and ethnography of New Mexico in a more detailed way than I have in a long time. Albuquerque , a not so very large city, surrounded by vast empty
and wild areas of dry desert and forested mountains, nurtured by the great
river that slices through terrain in some places and curves slowly through
green forested lowlands in others. Here has been my home in the cultural matrix
of the ancient pueblo peoples, and the traditional and not-so-traditional
Spanish and Anglo peoples. For the young listeners from Hong Kong . Perhaps one day they will go and see what I have described.
The night winds down, and the night winds
on, till in the final hour, long after closing, it’s Alsan, Tanya, Prakash, and
I sitting around the low table next to the bar under the light of the green and
the red Chinese paper lanterns.